I am broken-hearted as a mom… Last night, i broke down with tears for much loneliness of not being able to hug my baby. I long for her embrace and her scent.
We do make our own choices with a hope to make life better. Nowadays, we strive working towards the goal of providing a better life for our ‘lil ones… And for some, it means having to deal with distance and loneliness being far from the loved ones for financial stability.It pains my heart now. It’s been a week of being away from my daughter and it seems like forever. I am struggling with the realization that money will never be of equal value with the happiness of having your family beside you.
Today I woke up with a heavy heart. I get it! We are in a state of “building” and “forming” foundation for our family and even in any construction, this stage is the most crucial and important. But once the foundations laid straight and strong, the next things to worry are how the building will work and look great, that’s where aesthetics and functionality follow which can be tweaked here and there in a latter stage. But, does everyone go through this same phase? Why does it seem pretty easy for others and difficult for us? Why do we have to spend days, and even months of not being able to spend time together as a family? I am now unsure if the choices we make are right. I know we have painstakingly took our way to lay the groundwork but for some reasons my hands are a bit too shaky to handle the load while ensuring a sturdy base for the construction of our future.
I stood strong with all the piling works. I even went beyond my capacity as a woman to handle all the load and I have to reinforce myself with determination and strength. I hid all the weak emotions to be able to provide a stronger support for my husband, but today I felt weak and would want to take easy way out and as I keep thinking my head throbs with pain coz there’s no shortcut to building our dream house. We must go through the brick laying which depends on good workmanship and efficiency and that would mean that me and my husband have to strengthen the scaffolding with fewest possible motions to achieve a definite result. There is no room for uneven or soft ground.
The sad truth is, our castle isn’t ready yet and our princess has to sleep away from us while we are building strong walls and roofs for her shelter. May God grant us more strenth and courage to complete this labor-intensive phases. May our love reach her and may she never feel incomplete without us beside her. This is just a temporary stage. Soon we will celebrate all the occasions together. Happy Valentine’s day our princess Danna Halliah. Mom and dad love you eternally.

